Sa totoo lang, napapaisip na lamang ako kung bakit hindi ko kayang bumitaw sa kung anong mayroon tayo. Kasi mas madalas na akong masaktan kumpara sa mga pagkakataon na masaya ako sa piling mo.

Sinusubukan kong magtapat sa’yo - na ayaw ko na, pero iniisip ko na lang lagi kung ano ang iisipin mo. Kung paano mo tatanggapin ang sitwasyon na mayroon tayo. Kung tutuusin, hindi kita maiwan. Iniisip kita lagi - kung paano ka na lang kung wala ako. Kasi hindi ko naman alam kung paano ka dati noong bago mo pa ako makilala. Pero sa pagkakabigkas at pagkakakwento mo, masasabi ko na ayaw ko bumalik ka sa ganoon.

Naipit ako sa sitwasyon natin, mahigit sa isang taon na. Parang kailan lang, ‘di ba? Ano ba talaga tayo ngayon? Hindi ko rin alam, pero parang nakukuntento na tayo sa ganito. Sapat na ba yung makuntento tayo sa ganito? Masama ba na maghangad ako ng mas marami pa, kung alam ko naman na para ‘to sa ikabubuti ng lahat?

Pero hindi ko alam kung para sa lahat ba talaga o para sa akin lang talaga. Ayaw ko maging madamot.

Mahal kita, sobra-sobra - higit pa sa kung sino man na minahal ko. Ikaw lang naman ang tumanggap sa akin ng ganito - iyong umaapaw. Siguro nga higit pa sa magulang ko, kung tutuusin lang naman talaga. Kaya hindi rin kita kayang iwan - kasi natatakot ako na wala ng magmamahal sa akin tulad ng pagmamahal mo sa akin. Sa’yo lang kasi ako nakaramdam ng ganito.

Sabi nila, ang swerte ko daw, kasi mahal natin ang isa’t isa - pero paano kung mas humihigit na ang sakit kaysa sa pagmamahal? Mas mangingibabaw pa rin ba yung isa kahit alam natin na kulang siya? Hindi ko alam. Sa tinagal-tagal ng ganitong sitwasyon natin, ngayon ko lang napagtanto ang mga bagay-bagay.

Ang sakit, pero ganun talaga ‘di ba? Mahal kita e.

(Oo, tagalog talaga, para ‘di mo maintindihan halos lahat.)

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Anonymous asked: Tell me I'll be okay..

You’re going to be. Maybe not really soon, but you will be, eventually.

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roiserrano:

I think you could fall in love with someone easily if you get to see the parts of them that other people don’t get to see.

roiserrano:

There will be a day when you’ll meet someone special, who will accept and love you for who you are. They will know everything about you - the things you hate and the things you admire; including your coffee order.

They will fall in love; with no one else - just you.

12:24 a.m. // 12:31 a.m.

The world is beautiful at this time of night. Everything is quiet and still. Nothing feels real. There are stars above you, reminding you that even though there are thousands of them, forming into constellations - we are still incomplete.

The world is beautiful at this time of night, but there are only a few people who experience it.

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Are you okay?

Sometimes I don’t feel like sharing, because people judge me from whatever that comes out of my mouth, including personal struggles. Most of my friends don’t understand my situation and it gets me thinking most of the time.

It’s not that I want them to know everything about me, I just want them to listen when I talk, because it’s highly unusual for me to talk about my life - because of a lot of things. I’m fucked up, damaged and emotionally drained.

When people ask me if I’m okay, I tend to lie, because I don’t want them to say that I’m sharing too much. They have already said it to me, quite a number of times actually - that I’m too open and I’m not guarded. I over-share. I have a big mouth.

For someone who has been through a lot, I always end up blaming myself. I can never really be okay, I guess.

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For years I was lost in a world of loud voices and small hearts.HMUA: Mikka Marcaida Makeup Artistry & Kristel MatiasOn shoot location at: University of the Philippines - Diliman

For years I was lost in a world of loud voices and small hearts.

HMUA: Mikka Marcaida Makeup Artistry & Kristel Matias
On shoot location at: University of the Philippines - Diliman

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Wild Heart with Tricia SantosHMUA: Mikka Marcaida Makeup Artistry & Kristel MatiasOn shoot location at: University of the Philippines - Diliman

Wild Heart with Tricia Santos

HMUA: Mikka Marcaida Makeup Artistry & Kristel Matias
On shoot location at: University of the Philippines - Diliman

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If we’re gonna do anything, we might as well just fuck.

If we’re gonna do anything, we might as well just fuck.

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Today was mostly about doing a photoshoot with Tricia Santos at UP Diliman. I had fun time with Tricia, Sam and Alyssa - when we mostly talked about Tricia and a lot of other random things.
This is a behind-the-scene photo. I’ll upload the rest of the photos, soon!

Today was mostly about doing a photoshoot with Tricia Santos at UP Diliman. I had fun time with Tricia, Sam and Alyssa - when we mostly talked about Tricia and a lot of other random things.

This is a behind-the-scene photo. I’ll upload the rest of the photos, soon!

(Source: roiserrano)

Anonymous asked: You remind me of that kid at school who is so cool that everyone wants to talk to you but you're just too cool to talk to and everyone is intimidated by your coolness

Anonymous asked: I'm a guy, and I'm madly in love with the way you write. :)

12:21 a.m // 12:24 a.m.

I have never realized the importance of ‘love’, until I have let myself fall into it. It’s a sudden rush of excitement - a roller coaster of emotions. I have also never imagined it to be heavy, while I crave for every piece of you.

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